I usually shower every Sunday, though I'll probably feel a bit better after a shower.

Happy 5000th post

@Mystic Monkey Oh, I'm sure you'll be fine. I guess it's safe to assume that you won't lose interest in the franchise over the next decade or so, you've stuck with it through thick and thin.

I just hope I'm still on here to congratulate you once it happens, you've taken such good care of the community over the years and I hope to follow in your footsteps.

@Talking Gina

I have been worried... well, they were worries, now reduced to "slight concerns", of changes I've been going through. Such as the foods I usually like no longer that appealing or not eating much. (Last week I was stuck with a bad case of anxiety, which was when I have written my latest blog post. But I finally broke through it now. Now all my worries that were plaguing me have gone and the ones that are left are reduced to mere concerns that are easy for me to think or ignore. Such as why am I not as enthusiastic about cereal as before?)

@Mystic Monkey Don't push yourself to the limit man. Stay healthy and well. I like having you here as a admin on this wiki since you been here for so long and you became a admin since 2013.

@Mystic Monkey Disco's right. Don't push yourself too hard.

@Disco the Hedgefox & @EzioAuditoreTheFox

I'm no longer suffering from anxiety. It took a sort of on-the-spot intervention with my family to address the cause of my anxiety, given I was stuck with it and did not know the cause. But we-, well, I believe the cause was a pair of factors, a seed of doubt I planted in my mind a week before and forgot about, letting it take root, followed by some family drama that happened after which I figured was between them and not me.

It's strange, I thought the family drama had nothing to do with me, yet it still had this effect on me completely without me knowing. But once I had this intervention and my family assured me I had nothing to worry about, the anxiety I had been carrying for almost a week just dissipated.

Still one or two of my worries I had from my anxiety are lingering, but they're no more than just minor concerns now. A few days a go, I looked over to my "snack box" and lament how all the chocolates and biscuits I like no longer look appealing to me, that they're just going to waste and may never enjoy them again, that I am some sort of different person than I was before.😭

Now I look over to my snack box and think "Hhmph, I wonder if my love for Chocolate will return anytime soon? Oh well."🫤

@Mystic Monkey Honestly, I feel the same sometimes. I spend a lot of my time pondering our existence here. Here's a poem I wrote while depressed:

You do seem quite upset

Why not turn up that frown?

Look at me, I'm happy

Not feeling pain at all

Took a walk to clear my head of my thoughts

It did help me, my misery rots.

The gates have opened

Awaiting for us

To replenish our sins

To pay for the pain that we caused

Even if, we did nothing at all

And only had to bear it all

Give us wings to fly

We'll all ascend to the clear sky

The pain fades

He awaits

The bells chime, call my name

Problems, solutions

Connected by strings of hope

All it takes is one push

Until you cannot cope

Crazy, right? This is the kind of stuff my mind goes through while depressed.

Oh, I totally understand. When your brain is feeling at it's worse, it feels like your very soul is dislodged in your body, and you just want life to be how it was a few days a go. But once you get through it and look back at your behaviour, you feel like you were a bit of a drama queen and hope to have grown over it not to fall into such pits again.... only to fall into another pit a year or two later.

@Mystic Monkey The first time I realized I wrote that, I think I scared myself. I mean, who would write about..; well, that!?