User blog comment:Bullet Francisco/A Message to SNN/@comment-Syber The Hedgehog-20120131232652

Before i begin, let me say that everything i say is based on what i've heard, seen and experienced first hand, and as a result, some of what i say may be wrong, but this is based on my memory....which kinda sucks. This is also based on my personal view, so please treat it with respect.

.........ya know.....you and me go back a bit on this wiki. you were one of my first friends. you helped me when i asked for it, just like most any other user would on a wiki. when we were introduced to xat, things got much more fun, and you, me, Dark Future, Jake, Katrins and Fly, we all hung out a lot there. It was fun, especially when we were all working on Team Emerald, and our other stories. But eventually, your problems did start setting in. You and I ended up in one fight, and i told you that i was who i was, and not to take me seriously on the insults that i give out because i dont actually mean them, i take say them more so to exaggerate my point on certain subjects. that was the first, and only fight you and i ever got in, and after that, we never really had anymore problems. Unfortunately, over time, your life ended up getting worse, and as a result, so did your attitude and personality.

Fights became more and more common between you and the members of your team, 'Explosive', and pretty soon, they started spreading to others. Some way or another, sometimes i ended up getting dragged into the fights, and i did my best to calm everyone down while not taking sides with anyone. I remained neutral in my decisions, and the fights ended for good amunts of time before even more started appearing. It was during these times i learned of your personal issues. While i do not know details, and am glad that i don't, i did become aware of the fact that you are a sensitive person. Judging from the mixed comments i was recieving from many other individuals, i came upon this realization, and can honestly say i was not entirely surprised when your behavior began to deteriorate more and more.

Then, we all moved to skype, and things were going rather well for quite some time. Then there was the issue with DarkFuture's nomination back last year. I knew that you had personal problems, and so, I stayed out of the issue. part of me believes that I should have gone in and talked to you, but i knew that there was a very large chance that things would've gotten worse, so i remained silent. things ended up back to normal for the most part, and you an I did talk from time to time, but after a while, we started talking less and less, until we never said a word to each other for days and weeks on end. But i know my way around a grape vine. I knew you were having problems, but i never spoke up about them because i figured it was not my place.

Then, there was the issue with you and Jake. I payed much attention, and talked to many a people. I know all about what happened. Francisco, after you became an admin, while others may not have seen it, I did. You became somewhat controling, reverting many of jake's edits that, in all honesty, were not bad edits, and were not uneccessary. You two ended in an edit war, followed shortly by a fight, and that's when things started crumbling. Yes, both you and jake did and said things you shouldn't have, but things were in your favor because you were an admin, and that's when the kickbans became an actual ban. at that point, im not sure if it was because of your personal life influencing you or not, but you had become controlling, and were determined to get things your way. This was further proven to me when we were woking in skype recently on an upcoming story. you and i ended up in an argument, but it did not escelate into a full blown fight. The argument was on whether or not a person was able to 'dictate' their story to have things happen in a certain order, and that was resolved due to a slight misunderstanding. However, after that, you had been complaining about someones lack of communication and found it 'rude' of said individual. i was going to say something, but all I got out was, and I quote:'Dude' before you kicked me from the chat. Another person from that same chat we were in informed me that you removed me because you thought 'I was going to insult you.' While i am not going to say whether or not if i was or wasn't, To be honest, i did not care about that at all. I knew of your attitude enough at that point to have expected it, and no matter how it would've turned out, I would have viewed you no differently than i do now.

Things continued to further break down from there until we arrived at this very point. While i cannot say i am surprised at all that you went behind my back and the backs of other users, I accept your apology nontheless, as frankly, i didn't care one way or the other. Bullet Francisco. I have watched. I have talked. I have listened. I understand. Your personal life got to you, It stressed you out. Life does that. It stresses everyone out, some much more than others. I understand it all. No matter what you or others may believe, i have never harbored any negative feelings towards you, or anyone else on this wiki. I have Never treated you with anything but the utmost respect, and even now, i still consider you to be my friend. You're still on my userpage's friend list for a reason, man. While i forgive you for the things you've done and the things you may do in the future, my decision must remain as neutral as possible.

That being said, I am sorry to say That i believe your position as an admin should, in fact, be revoked. Your personal issues have flodded into your internet life, and caused you to make some very bad decisions. I do not, however, believe that you should be banned from the wiki. As Sacourguy and Kagimizu said, you must earn your trust back in the community. You were one of the best examples of how a wiki user is suppsed to act, and i believe you have the ability to return to that status. Everyone deserves a second chance, and this will be yours should you choose to stay on the wiki. While being reinstated as an admin may be quite a ways away for you, it is very much there, provided you become the outstanding user you once were. I would also like to make the suggestion, that should you decide to stay, that you jump off the internet for at least one month, and try to focus on getting your personal life in order as much as you possibly can. This way, you can have a truly fresh start, and come back with more peace of mind.

I thank you for taking your time to read this, and i hope that things can somehow return to normal. Quite honestly, i miss team explosive, and i would like to make another story with you guys, if possible.