Thread:True infinity35/@comment-5903643-20181226213530/@comment-34240967-20190102224003

That one is complicated. It has more to do on how he thinks of the world. When he said "I grow tired of the world as it is." it means that he doesn't really like the world and he is tired of it. He had a rough up-bringing and he learns about his squad's past, yes, but it's not because of the tragic pasts, it's how he reacts to them. He was verbally abused by Axel and the inmates in jail. How Zero reacts to these tragic events, is that he wants to become strong because for what he experienced, being weak will make you live a life of misery or people will think that you're better off dead. He wants to be strong to find a greater purpose in life and he wants to be respected and loved by people.

"Before joining the squad, I thought the only purpose I have in this world is to be nothing but trash to everyone around me. Zero, my name, has a meaning to the words that I hate the thought of me being. Weak, pathetic, and worthless. Those words describe you as nothing but a waste of air and when you pass on from this world…. That's what they'll always remember you as. That story I told you about my past holds no truth in it. The reason why I choose to join the squad is to find a greater purpose in my existence. Besides being nothing… A nobody who feels that the world will never see him as something greater than that. [Zero looks at his reflection in his sword.] To me, dying is merciful than living that life. I've been trying to prove that I'm not worthless for as long as I can remember. The method I've used before didn't do me any favors at all. I've gained nothing and I've been living in a foolish life. But even after all of that, I never gave up. Becoming the ultimate mercenary means that you have something to hold onto for the rest of your life. You have people that love and respect you for who you are and what you've done for them. You become a strong person that can take on the world without showing fear or vulnerability. I want to become the ultimate mercenary, but I want to feel like I've earned the title rather than being past onto from another man's demise. Earning your strength and honor is a much better outcome than have it handed to you on a silver platter. That is a sign of weakness. I don't want to live or die a weakling. That is my motivation to get stronger. I'd rather die an honorable and noble death than live like a worthless being. I don't seek strength just so I can prove a point, I also seek it so I can be somebody while I'm still living."

After Zero joins and learns about Stryker and the squad, he starts thinking of the world more negatively but he doesn't show and tell his squad and it's the reader who learns about Zero's mentality and how he feels about the world. Sometimes when a person has a tragic past, they start to have a hatred for the world or certain types of people who caused their tragedy: Example, their is a trope called "Woobie, destroyer of worlds", where a character suffers from a tragic event that makes them hate the world and want to see it destroyed. However, Some people can experience tragedy and still doesn't hate the world. A tragic event can change a person from better, worse, or in-between, depending on how the person reacts to it. Like batman, his parents were murdered in front of him as a child, so he decided to become a hero so nobody can experience what he has as a child (Tragic Hero). Younger toguro from Yu Yu hakusho; https://youtu.be/37uc7raOVzA. (Fallen Hero) Guts and griffith from berserk; https://youtu.be/FcoCVGv0DwE (One is a Neutral person and one was driven to villainy). And even Sensuei from Yu Yu hakusho; https://medium.com/@digimane/the-formula-for-a-complex-villain-shinobu-sensui-c4e42dc02a07 I recommend you watch the videos and read about these characters. They're very complex and the person explains about them with them experiencing their own tragedies that drives them to be what they are now.

As many years gone by, after the death of Stryker and killing his father, Zero finally has a great purpose in his life. But it doesn't mean that he likes the world now. He becomes more arrogant and more of a different person than what he was before.

When Zero asked Claire what she thought of the world, he exoected her to say it's about survival like Stryker did. Zero believes that the world isn't really a good place from his experiences. Making him think that it is not meant for everybody to want to live in it, if you're not strong enough. Even Stryker somewhat still didn't like the world, despite him being rescued and was exposed to kindness by the villager who saved him.

Last thing about Zero, after losing to Shadow and witnessed the death of his squad. Zero was driven by guilt and regret for not listening to them about joining Eggman and he was driven by revenge against Shadow. Causing him to feel like he couldn't refuse the offer to get stronger by the phantom ruby. Due to Zero's dislike of the world, evolves to one of Infinite's personality to cause destruction upon it.

Zero, Stryker, and the jackal squad are complex character's. I could explain everything about Zero and the rest of them as characters but I would make an entire article. lol.

In simple terms: Zero's hidden desires to want to see the world in peral, is from his personal experience with his and his squad's life that makes him hate it.