User blog comment:Kagimizu/Lost and Angry/@comment-4220590-20161125130545/@comment-4220590-20161125223052

If it is any consolation, I think the same thing is happening on other wikias as well (though the degree varies). I guess it is just a combination of the generation switching out and the younger generation (which steps in is lazy), and the wikias trying to be more professional as they define their direction.

Nonetheless, if you try and challenge yourself with something you would not do, maybe you will come to feel that it is not so difficult in the end and that you might redefine your viewpoint of yourself and your work.

However, I understand that your emotions are just a mess right now, and you need time to sort them out. I won't force you to do anything though, so take your time to relax and clear your head.