User blog:Ultrasonic9000/Goodbye...

I have had a rough day today. When I woke up, I thought it was going to be a normal day, but I could not be more wrong. I was on the chat when BlueSpeeder apologized for being rude for using my model for the Template:Black Knight Info, and I threw a fit. I felt betrayed, robbed and my right violated and I just threw it at people without regard. I now understand that I was the one that was wrong. When you put something on the web, it is for public use so BlueSpeeder had complete right to do that. I am sorry for the way I behaved and I and sorry causing so many troubles.

However, in my anger, a lot of people showed their thoughts about me, things like I was too prideful, close-minded and kept people's opinions and edits at bay because I wanted them in a specific way. Also things like I make articles too detailed. This got me thinking about my future here, and I have drawn a conclusion from it...

I have decided to leave Sonic News Network indefinitely. The people here are right about one thing: I do take too much pride in my work and I have become too fond of it, especially Sonic the Hedgehog. However I never intended to be selfish. I just have a strong passion for Sonic and I wanted to make articles detailing all his greatness. And when I looked at articles on Harry Potter Wiki, Narutopedia, One Piece Wiki, Bleach Wiki etc. which featured amazing articles on every situation, I thought I could raise the standards of SNN by following their standards for article order, details and structure, AND make great Sonic articles beneficial for all.

However, now I see people not following my attempts at setting such standards (either by complaining about me, doing things outside the norms and shorting my work) and I find myself unable to cope with that. I cannot bear seeing the work I have done over the years to raise the standards degraded, especially because I have become so attached to them, even though I know that others have all the right to do that. To see that is like a knife in my heart, but I don't want to make people unhappy either, so I tried to complying to those demands, but this has become too much for me to bear as it goes against precious ideals and I cannot stand being caged this way.

My only solution therefore is to completely detaching myself from SNN; that way, I wont get in others way, and I won't feel the pain from the articles I hold dear being changed. I don't know how long I will be gone - maybe I just need a break to sort my thoughts out, but I doubt it; heck, I might not ever come back as I just can't cope with these decisions. Heh, It's kinda funny; I talked with Mystic Orb this morning about finding your place and I was sure I had found mine here, but now I can only think of myself being further away from that truth than ever. All these years I believed I was where I belonged since I could contribute in the way I was, but now I suddenly see that a wiki was never the right place for me, which leaves me with only regret.

Sorry to leave you guys like this, but I just can't stay here anymore. I thought I was helping and at the same time make myself happy, but that was not the case. I really wish I could stay, but I know who I am. So... goodbye for now. And thank you for the good times and the support you have given me.

...And please, take care of Sonic the Hedgehog for me

Goodbye