Thread:Ultrasonic9000/@comment-27387232-20181230200242/@comment-4220590-20181230200940

I know, but it hurt in my heart watching how far they have come while we are stuck in a rut. I feel inadequate and hopelessly stupid and lazy when seeing this, and I cannot stand watching it and doing nothing knowing that whatever I try to do, I will always be second fiddle to those much more talented than me. I can't help but feel anything but hate and jealousy, and that includes hating myself for not being better.