Thread:Ultrasonic9000/@comment-679780-20170329210157/@comment-679780-20170329214329

While I have considered either the Mario or Eggman ones, I'm just not one to repeat old jokes and always try it bring something new to the table every year. I might consider a brand new "theme" for the day, but I got new sleeping patterns and I am too tired to think up anything new.

I won't go into details about last week, but it had been both emotionally and mentally exhausting to the point I've realised I'm not as durable or as outgoing person I once was a few years back and how now I'm a bit of a worrywort. Due to my aspergers if my attention is over-burdened with too much bad things to think about, my worst case scenario is I start crying. I am alright now and easygoing but I've become more conscious of my feelings and have thoughts such as "Why am I feeling a bit off and how can I correct myself?" It sucks because just a few weeks before I was content with doing whatever how I please, now I seem to over-think and worry about what I must do to feel content. And while I have nothing to worry about doesn't mean I can just switch-off worrying, so instead of struggling not to worry, I decided to try and ignore it with browsing the internet or such.

I love my brother who also has aspergers, but I don't want to be like him where he has various meds to keep his emotions content. He recently gave up his diets and abstinence from smoking when he realised he wasn't living his life to the fullest because of trying to regulate his emotions.

I hope very soon I can fully be my fully confident and a bit snarky self again soon and not accept how a bit rickety I am now as the me I'll have to be for now on. Would probably help if I get round to hoovering and not be so fat conscious.