Thread:Genesjs/@comment-5354215-20150116022642/@comment-5354215-20150117233429

Yeah, I suppose so. It's taken a while, but I finally realized I'm actually happier not being here. Half the users don't know me, at least not very well, I've run out of motivation to do anything at all here, and I've been out of the loop with SNN's updates and politics for ages.

There are times when I decided to leave, but returned in a few months. These were attempts to reintegrate myself with the community, and hopefully climb the ladder to become administrator material again. Ever since this guy we all know told me in my Rollback nomination I was ready for adminship, I've been dying to become one. But I never dared to run for the position... I was frightened of rejection. I was a coward. Also, SU13 was competing with me at the time and was easily more determined. The best man won. It took me too long to discover how selfish I truly was - I felt as though adminship was my destiny. I didn't really want to act like one; I just wanted the status.

One substantial reason for my departure would have to be the sheer lack of vandalism here. Ever since we disabled anonymous user contribution, there has been very little for me to do as a Rollback (since anons are the main source of vandalism). But it's also because I simply don't care about this website or the people here, and I hate Message Walls and the new forum system.

I could go on, but there'd be no point. Bottom line: I don't like it here anymore.

Will you ever see me again? Let me tell you: moments of solace don't last. But if you're hoping for solace, just look around. Everyone here is standing in line.